First born

So our first born, baby M, the light of my life, our little soldier has grown from strength to strength since we were told at our 20 week scan that he had a small lower jaw which could be part of something bigger and could cause problems at birth and/or later in life.

When he was born there were many people waiting for him to struggle right from the beginning, alhamdulillah he showed them just what he was made of and hes been doing that every since. He didnt need help to breathe, they put him on me and he lifted his head up and looked straight at me before he was took away for 'help' that he never needed. I will never forget that look from him, he was telling me "Mama, Im fine. Im here, we're going to be ok" It was while he was away from me that they found he also had a cleft palate but I was only told about that when hubby came back from seeing him settle down at the intensive care baby unit with a doctor a good few hours after his birth.

The next day a cleft nurse came to see us and that was when our journey truly began and Pierre Robin Sequence was uttered. There was lots of paperwork given to us, we were taught so many things at the hospital, things we should have been able to learn ourselves but they felt we needed to know while we were there. There were lists after lists after lists. Checklists of what to do if his oxygen levels fell, things to try if he cried out, things to do when changing his feeding tube, what to make sure I had when visiting him for those first 3 weeks while he was still in hospital and I was going to the hospital on my own.

Things have definitely been a test but I try to remember always that Allah tests those he loves, even through the tears and the questions I always try to remember this. It doesnt make things easier or take away that feeling sometimes but eventually it gets there.

Its been awhile...

... many things have changed but so many are still the same Alhamdulillah

We are still just as busy, although slightly busier with an extra mouth.. baby joined us in September 2014 and has been a delight. He too is cloth bummed and worn regularly although not as much as his brother was at that age as we have moved from the South to the great North to be closer to family and to afford us more space for them to run around.

Alhamdulillah we have been blessed with a bigger place to live with outdoor space and plenty of outdoor parks to visit in our area. For the first time since I have known my husband he is no longer working weekends so we get to spend a full 2 whole days together as a family.

Im back at work which actually gives me chance to think about restarting my blog. There are many issues in my life right now that I feel I need to release to some extent, health issues with both of our boys Allahu alim, hobbies that I miss, Islamic issues so inshaAllah I can restart everything on here while keeping everyone up to date on our little family :D